Sunday, April 15, 2012

Story of my life.

Helo readers! Saya sedang sibuk (ter-amatsangat!) tapi saya cuba meng-update blog dan meluahkan segala yang terbuku dihati. Ehem! Ceritanya bermula macamni....

Okay kejap, have you ever experienced this scenario, one individual (I mean so close to you) disappears suddenly with no apparent reason? Have you? Sedih tak? Rasa macam nak terjun KLCC tak? Astahgfirullahalzim tsk tsk tsk

So here the story begins jeng jeng jeng.... Someone leaves me suddenly with NO explanation. It's more difficult to accept the fact that you dont even know the reasons why. KEJAM TAK? Leave me with a feeling of being used. :( Then what did the "stupid" me do? Yeap, I call him continuously until I get an answer tapi he rejected my call! Send endless text messages eventho it remains unanswered. Even worst, when there's no response, it leads to an increased feeling of panic that I've been deserted. Pathetic?

I come to think that... when somebody disappears with no response its not a good sign actually. Besides, its indeed hurtful. Deleting every trace of the person is sometimes the best thing to do, though its painful. And then..... there comes a time when I think of this, "WHAT KIND OF PERSON COMES INTO YOUR LIFE, TAKES YOU ON A GALACTICA BATTLESTAR RIDE THAT ONE DAMN SCARY ROLLER COASTER IN UNIVERSAL STUDIOS, THEN DISAPPEARS?" (exaggerate much I know) Theres something wrong with that picture kan? In fact, it leaves you with a sense of complete rejection. Dont you? Sometimes those who disconnect are never heard from again. And after all those bullshit they left or maybe bored with their life without us, they reappear. Bongok. So with the help of my beloved girlfriends, they told me not to let that bullshit back in again to prevent the pattern from repeating. Left feeling empty and betrayed again. So yeah, I must be strong this time! Hoyeah! Unless, of course there was a legitimate, true reason for the "disappearing act", though I cant think of many legitimate excuses. Dont you? *sarcastic look*

So readers, can you guess why the heck this scenario happened? For me myself, I think thats all because he wanted to start seeing somebody else. Nahhh I cant think of any other reasons. But the thing here is, why not just be HONEST?! Cowardly cowardly custard, you cant eat mustard! hahahahahahahahah

Hmmmm.... Ill never understand why some ppl think that disappearing is the best course of action when you want out of a relationship. It could save a lot of hurt for the other involved if there was open communication. Sure, it hurts to lose somebody, but its much easier when you're not left HANGING. Not knowing WHY. The end result is a casual brush-off that is demoralizing, to say the least. Especially if you shared many private things.... things you believed were special with the two of you. Then a casual "OH NEVERMIND...." disappearing act! Unfortunately, actions speak louder than words. Sadly, many ppl we care for disappoint us in the most demeaning manner. It makes us wonder all sorts of theories kan kan kannn? Were they lying all along? What was the true motive? What happened in their life to cause such a sudden change? Why did he leave? And many more....... This is a story of my life.

Sedih tak? Tak? Ok foineeeeeeeee. I better off. Grammatical Analysis is waiting for me. Goooooodnight!

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